Happy is a choice

为什么每次考验我，都要从亲情和友情中做选择？

我最在乎的就是这两个，可是没有什么是可以两全其美的。

每一次，我只能选择亲情，因为我可以不义但是绝对不可以不孝。

结果，我除了家人，什么都没有。

每当我以为我真的找到可以信任的朋友，选择就会出现。

得到的还是会慢慢失去。

不是我的，永远不可能是我的。

Well. I do start feeling guilty when i see other peoples are put in effort for their future. I am really busy. Ya, it's true but when i was free, i never use my time to do some research. So, this is not a valid reason. I am sorry. Mummy, i will try.

I am a bit inconsistency. When i am busy, i hope to have holiday to take a rest; but when i am totally free, i hardly find anything to do, i feel like almost death. Haihz. Why human being always get so complicated?

Today i am happy to see you guys!! I miss you guys so much. Haha. We gonna have gathering every monday can ma?? Well. Since i am only free on Mon. Haha. Now i am getting sadder when i start imagine the day we all go to study. The day is getting closer!!!!=(

Time, can you move slower a bit? I justwanna try my best to catch up what i may lost in the future.

I am a bit complicated.
If i can, sure i wanna rush to your side, immediately. But, the problem is now i cant.
Anything i can do, i will try my best.
And this is my promise.

Start missing school days. Now at home is too boring. Watching movie, online and sleep. I just found that long holiday is not good for human. I can die fast if i continue live like this.

So,
tomorrow i will have my new life. Busy life, but i think i will love it anyway. At least i have something to do.



Holiday give me some illusion. Feeling not right when i did't stay with my friend. Feel like i will lost something which is important to me.

Well.
I can see spider web. Really very long long time didn't come out to write a word.

KL trip is just over. I just wanna say i am sad. Yesterday i lost my bag. My favourite tee and shorts was inside. The shorts was the only thing my dad brought for me in Singapore. Not very expensive but it was just what i like. The bottle was belongs to my mum. I am sorry to PS that you lost your cloths too. It was really a bad idea to put your cloths in my bag. I am thinking over and over again why i didn't put in locker. And please dont ask me again. I cant figure out an answer but i promise, no matter whatever again i will put in the locker.

Guys,
I was trying my best to lead you guys to all the destination. I am sorry if i had went to the wrong way or whatever mistake. I kept my responsible to ensure your steps, i just hope you enjoy your trip. The last day i was not really in mood but if i had influence you or done something wrong, i am sorry.

my dears,
I wanna say again. Please do not lost the ring. I can cry if you do so. I know you havent be normal but please keep it well. I just wanna have a chance to prove that i really care about yous.

I usually believe in humans. But i found that humans are not trustworthy at all. The saddest is, when i am down, i find no one to share. But that is just what human is. I cant change other people, i can only change my mind.

Good night to all.